卢曦 LU Xi 对岸 The Opposite Bank 布面油画 2007 172x130cm

偏不向前看——卢曦作品

展览时间/Date：2009.05.23-2009.06.20

开幕酒会/Reception：2009.05.23 15:30

展览地点/Venue：玉兰堂 北京市朝阳区酒仙桥路2号院3818库

LINE GALLERY 3818 Warehouse, 2 Jiuxianqiao Rd, Chaoyang Dist, beijing

策展人/Curator：赵塑/ZHAO Sue

我出生于八十年代的西安，是独生子女的一带代,抱着自己的毛绒娃娃长大的孩子。

四岁左右住进了一个叫做铁指医院的大院子里。我们住的楼房后面有一大片油菜花地，春天花开的时候许多的爸爸妈妈和孩子，也包括我们家都去那里散步。渐渐的，医院里盖起了幼儿园、学校、还有汽水厂，油菜花地变成了水泥铺的操场。我们就一人抱一瓶汽水厂里产的冰峰汽水，在学校操场里疯跑；或是跑到医院十楼楼顶一起向下看。可是现在的我，站在三楼向下看都会头发晕、腿发软。

在美院上大学的第二年，我不幸脚骨折了，只能靠拄拐行走。不但要在家待两个月，还错过系里第一次组织的出外写生旅游。在那两个月里，我懂得了，能走路已经是件很幸福的事了。毕业后画过壁画，去过广西的北海、百色，白天吃芒果买珍珠、看大海；夜里打着高瓦数的紫光灯画海底世界。建设中的海洋馆里七八个技术人员正在把一条刚捕到的十五米的鲸鲨制作成标本，旁边还放着一缸被福尔马林浸泡着的、已经面目全非的海豚。无奈我们天天的工作餐都是晒干的鲨鱼肉，还有鲨鱼骨做的汤。

2006年夏天，来北京画画。渐渐的，小时候的记忆被一点一点地勾了起来。我的不倒翁、坏坏的熊猫玩具、彩色的塑料凉鞋；永远玩不腻的碰碰车、露天的游泳池。总觉得小时候的这段记忆是最深刻的。到现在还记得，上幼儿园时大家坐铁摇篮，摇的同学突然一发力——翻了，我的一个手指甲被砸掉了。老师背着我去医院包扎好又把我背回了家，那天下着雨……有段时间，晚上做完作业，一群小孩儿在院里的大礼堂外偷看大人们“搓二步”。总是昏暗的灯光，偶有的一束彩色光束照射在某一对的身上，迷幻而安静。

重拾记忆，画那些曾经拥有过的、曾经经历过的，有快乐、有悲伤。对我来说每每完成的不仅仅是一副副画——享受它们的过程，回忆童年的甜蜜和酸涩，为了我们遥远的童年还有那些曾经忘却的记忆。

I was born in 1980s in Xi’an. As a member of the first generation of family planning, I grew up with my doll.

Our family moved to the living quarters of Railway Hospital when I was four. Behind our apartment was a field of rape flower. We went for walk along with many other families when the flowers blossomed in the spring. Then the kindergarten, school and soft drink factory were built one after one. The field was replaced by a cement playground. My little friends and I used to play rough around the playground with a bottle of soft drink from the soft drink factory in each one’s hand. At that time we always looked down from the 10th floor of the hospital. But now, I will faint even looking down from the 3rd floor.

I broke my leg and could only walk with a stick at the beginning of my second school year in Xi’an Fine Arts Academy. I was forced to stay at home for 2 months and missed the first sketch journey, which made me feel the ability of walk is really a gift from heaven.

After graduation, I had painted mural and went to Beihai and Baise in Guangxi. In there, I enjoyed my seaside life in the daytime and painted underwater world under ultraviolet lamp in the night. In the under-constructing aquarium, several technicians were making a just caught shark into specimen. Right aside was a decayed dolphin in the formalin tank. At that time, I had to survive dried huss and huss soup as everyday meal.

I came to Beijing in the summer of 2006. From then on I put all my energy into painting. Gradually I recalled my roly-poly, bad-boy-looking panda bear, plastic tablecloth; the bumper car which I never felt bored to play, that open-air pool. I believe the memory of that period will never fade. I can still remember that day, when I was still in the kindergarten, a kid turned over the steel cradle I was in. It broke a nail of mine. My teacher carried me to the hospital and sent me home, it was a rainy day...For a period of time, after finished my homework, I along with my little friends would peep at grow-ups dancing "two-step" in the auditorium. There was always a colorful light lighting on one couple of them, made everything mysterious and quiet.

Revive my old memory, paint the thing once I have, the event once I experienced, no matter they are joyful or sorrowful. I am not just painting, but enjoying the sweetness and bitterness of my dust-laden memory and try to recall everyone's childhood and their long lost past.